Our Children

Being able to see now in such short retrospect of how God was working is amazing!  During my internal struggle and sorrow in the couple of weeks following Jason's departure, He was working in Jason's heart too.  Shortly after arriving back in Afghanistan, Jason put together a package to send to me.  In it, he included a Mother's Day card.  He writes:

"Mother's Day is always going to special for me when it comes to you.  I feel it's because of Mother's Day I got your attention the first time with an email telling you how proud Steven must be to have your for his mother.  This year I'm sending a card to say the same, but I'll add that I think our Chinese daughter will be just as proud someday soon."

In a following conversation, he told me this card was his revealing of his own self reflection and prayer that reminded him what he wanted from our life together.  We want to raise our children in the ways God would have us to do.  He said it doesn't matter how those children come to be, if they are the ones chosen for us, that is his biggest dream come true. 

Now with my husband's leading, we are able to continue to pray for clarity regarding the other family and that we want the best path for the child.  If that includes us, we will be thankful.  If not, I continue to ask God to take the burden for her from my heart if the other family is the best option.